its, 2.35am and its teacher's day.

I've got, "inn of the sixth happiness" ringing in my ears





gosh, i wish the day would end a little faster, a little quicker.





i kinda cannot wait for my prelims to end, then my O's.




though i know that O's are really important, sometimes i think we might be blinded by the worldliness of everything around us. i just want to enter a junior college that doesn't have any hiccups in it.




hiccups....



today is the 29th of August.

29
29
29
29
29
29

it WOULD HAVE meant alot to me actually, HAHA.

but as they say, all things, no matter good nor bad, come to an end.

somehow, events passed creep into my thoughts.

HOW?
TRUE?
WHY?

well, i guess i'm just feeling a tad bit sleepy-ish. its at about this time that i become very wary of my thoughts.

i reflect upon things unsettled, things unsolved.

give me a dime, i'll give you change.
give me the time, i'll tell you a story of a lifetime.

yes yes, a brilliant story.

one of struggle, of pain, of banes, of hiding under in shame.



the struggle in knowing who to trust.

the pain of remembering everything all over again.

the bane of knowing i'll always be misunderstood

the shame of everyone knowing who was under my hood.






i really didnt imagine myself like that.

i seriously dont.

its quite contradictory actually.

i try my best to look happy all the time.
i do my best to seem happy all the time.
but at times when i'm on my own.
i dont remember why i smile.
why i cheer
why i take my hat off.

i never tell anyone about this,
most of my issues that are similar,
are actually written out.
on pages and pages of paper.

i just cannot seem to capture my sorrow when someone is around.

will someone please help me.....

and please be the person with a solution.

NOT JUST A WANT TO HELP. please...