ah, how foolish the boy was, to have thought that everything was going to be simple.

but he forgot all past experiences and the eccentric nature of humans.

having done so much, he sought, a little form of gratitude, but all he found, was not even a simple thank you. in fact, he was shocked by the words, "what have you done?"

thinking back, perhaps what he has done was really nothing. perhaps... that's what the boy would like to believe, that it actually amounted to something.

but he has not forgotten the joy, the joys of times past and now perhaps forgotten by others. he cherishes all that he has embraced, and holds them close to his bosom. not letting a little bit of any of it fade away.

if only the other could realise his intentions. i do not blame the boy for his foolishness.

how could anyone blame him? he wanted the other to feel special and he goes out of his way, sacrificing means and time, to put colour into her life, to see the other smile, through the way he only knows how.

and yet, the other never realises it. perhaps, the other sees it as...

Normal for the boy to do such things.

but is it normal for someone to continue to always try to make someone else feel : special, blessed, happy, top of the world?




Perhaps he was guided by different signs,


sometimes its, " come on =) " , other times its " get lost "





and he feels all, confused.




























one mistake little boy, the most painful part about love,















no one asked you to do it for the other.















you only have yourself to blame.


good bye little boy... i think I'll miss you as much as I'll miss alekx.



























Alekx left for Australia this evening, I'll be missing her a lot, ah... yes, I'll miss her a whole lot. cant bear the wait till December!