it has been a long time hasn't it?

anyways, here's my schedule for next week.

MONDAY - school,Tuition,Soccer Training.
TUESDAY - school,Band Practice,Soccer Training.
WEDNESDAY - School,Tuition,Soccer Training.
THURSDAY - School, Band Practice,Soccer Training.
FRIDAY - School, Tuition/Band Practice, Perhaps a swim somewhere.
SATURDAY - HOME UNITED MATCH DAY, Church, Relax.
SUNDAY - ???

As you can see, my heavily packed this week.
Its like, Soccer training from Monday to Thursday! now.. is that a good thing?
well, being my o'level year, of course its not, i guess its just a small passion for soccer.
but the guys over at home united are DAMN friendly...!
its only my second training and they are really nice to me!
not to mention they are real skillful too.

also, I've been neglecting my faith as well.
since last year's.. June? my walk with god has really changed.
in the past, i could control my swearing, but of course no one knew.
but now, its different. my mouth spouts out whatever it wants.
Now... is that how a christian should live?

of course not, I've already disappointed Him so much.
the way i see it, after youth camp in 2006, i was living it all for God.
but now, I'm in such a pathetic state,
i'm no longer anxious to worship and love him.
i'm just in a mess.

I'm sorry.

but of course, God is loving and caring, he can forgive me. and everything will be the same.
i serve an awesome GOD