a man who hides his sighs.

akin to finding suicide.

tampering with dice.

fighting with the mice.

the young boy in his pain ,cries.

just to see all his lies,

unfolding and tiwrling, spinning and dancing.

in a never ending high,

high high in the sky.

smiling toward the height.

eagles span and tie.

just to soar high.

high, high



















and thats just how i feel, its not really fun tampering with suicide all the time.

i just hate the was you force me.

and sometimes, it would be nice to just fly away from here, from well, to put it in a bad way. you.


and if you can leave me alone

okay, life's never been fair has it?

sometimes, you get wronged, sometimes you get ditched, sometimes you get scorned, sometimes you get taken out on, and on get pushed around.

and you never see the person who does that to you getting his or her JUST deserves, but it does not mean that they do not in a way " repay " their retributions.

right?


dont always think of how to get the person, think of how you can make the person see things your way.



and if things get outta hand, relax, and WAIT. Patience is key.

because no matter what, theres no way that a person can keep up and attitude against you for too long.


PATIENCE, patience

After some reading, i really thought of something.


what does love actually mean?


I got my answer few weeks back, at my church's event, love actually

love it seems is in a way, UNDEFINABLE

however, i was looking for a different answer from one that comes from the gospel.

you see, although the gospel gives us the answer to all, it always leads to god.

but what if the person i'm trying to express my love to doesnt know god? does it help?

Probrably not.

somehow i feel, love is unlike any emotion we have, be it hate or anger.

you can hate easily, you can be angry easily.......

BUT! can you love easily?

if i poped that question to any of you, can you EASILY answer me?

love comes from inside of you, not just that gutting feeling you feel whenever you see the one you like. its more than that.

can you EASILY give up anything or EVERYTHING for the one you love?

can you EASILY break the Traditions, Taboos, Rules for the one you love?


i dont think so.



However there is one thing that I'm SURE i can do for the one i love.

CAN YOU GIVE EVERYTHING THAT HE/SHE WANTS?

THAT'S one thing i can EASILY do for the one i love.

I heard a phrase of some sort, from a wise man.

"because love is Spelt G-I-V-E. I am willing to Give you this, because i LOVE you."

therefore, i finally feel, after writing so much, that love is give.

that giving OUT OF FREE WILL, means love.

can you give out of free will to the one you dislike?

or is it EASIER to GIVE OUT OF FREE WILL to the one you love?

and if you must know, i never prepared anything, i'm just writing off-hand.

i believe that this is God, using me in a way, to speak to someone.

why else would i be on the computer at 3 in the morning?

TURANDOT.

Alright guys, this is a bunch of pictures taken during the holidays!







Thats Me and Eunice, i was in a suit! cool right? and it was just nice for me la, not too big, not too small. WOOHOO



This was in japan, me and Santa Maria! haha. we were on the bus after shopping at night! i gotta tell you japan's shopping is awesome!!



thats me and the japanese band member! cant remember her name! but i bet if she saw this, she cant remember mine either!



band members again! but do you know? they are like 17 years old??



now these two pretty GIRLS are from my trumpet section, they came to find me! haha! i kinda miss them tho.



this was taken at Harajuku or was it Shinjuku?
In any case, thats me, followed by Benjiamin and then Jing Xuan. yep. JAPAN



we also managed a trip to the Yamaha Factory, and did you know? the world renowed Weiner Philharmoniker or Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra uses Yamaha instruments as well? Btw, the Weiner Philharmoniker is considered the FINEST in the world



after DISNEYLAND! YAY, i was just fooling around haha. NINJA!!! tUtrLe?



disneyland Personnel!



disneyland personnel again!



thats snow on Mount fuji, fifth station i think. but still, it was awesome!



i'm sorry guys, but i've turned GAY!!!!! yep. shannon is my buddy!



finally back home, this is what i got back!




i still have alot of pictures, but im not gonna show all la, 300+ you know?